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Those not reprieved would be kept in the condemned areas of Newgate in abysmal conditions, and it was not unusual for one or two to die of Goal Fever or other illness before their execution date.
Prisoners were grouped together, often from several Sessions, to be taken to Tyburn on the next hanging day.
Instead, it is just the first step in an ongoing process.